Anonymous asked: Hey nilam, Congrats on moving to sing, I was quite surprised 2 know that u have bipolar, Because I have it too, & I don't even know why I'm writing this on your ask, Maybe cuz I'm having that nights where I just feel sad without any reason, and I don't have any one to talk to, Sorry this is super random.
LOOK PEEPS, finally i have something that’s not a spam in my tumblr inbox :>
well um idk if this is a spam or not *happy that finally someone fills my ask box* *blushblushblush* but a spambot wouldn’t have known about my name and me moving to singapore right right right? so first of all, i do not have bipolar, but i do have some mental problems…. and it’s okay you can talk to me whenever you want, an email would be awesome. but one thing, TELL ME WHO THE HELL YOU AAARE!! *bite mode on*
“ why does God let it exists if it is not permitted?
question that’s been lingering on my mind for years. sorry guys for being too serious lately. or maybe too emo. oh lol WHATEV but seriously, for those who can give me a rational reason i’ll give you a……. special kiss from my armpit :>
gonna check my college today, i woke up at half four in the morning because of super-duper-exagerated-dynamic-excitement. i know guys it’s only singapore *le sigh* i wish i could go into academy of art in SF for my master degree.
BUT STILL, i’m stoked!
and i’m gonna live in the student hostel for a month while waiting for my mum to finish her work stuffs so she could get here. i wonder how does it feels like to live in a dorm….. hope i could make friends like in high school :> and FRIDAY is the orientation day *IT’S FRIDAY friday gotta get down on friday* again, i hope i could get awesome peeps like back in the high school
i need to get some more rest, bye peeps and wish me luck!
so many stuffs, but not that much because 2011 is the worst year EVER. i can’t make it until today if i don’t have such a wonderful friends around me *blush smily emoticon here*
the most interesting part of 2011 is that this is the year where i drive my car on the right side instead of the left side of the road (we drive on the left side here in jakarta) because driving on the left is just too mainstream y’kno B-) i feel like a boss *actually it was an accident part of my driving lesson*
2011 is the year that i (finally) told my parents that i have mental disorder, they just didn’t care back in 2010 because they thought i was just being childish until they hear the doctor’s diagnose. thank God for the failed attempt to kill myself. i did hurt myself tho but it’s okay now ~( ´ ‿ ` )~
also, 2011 is the year i quit school, and gonna enroll to an art institute in singapore next year. it was the hardest decision ever but God knows the best for me fffffyeah (actually happy about quitting school) but imma miss my highschool friends so muchmuchmunch
i lost lots of precious people in this year, i also have met new people in this year. i think that’s how stuffs roll. but i lost too many good people, things will never be the same again *le crying on top of monas* talking about monas, they won’t be having a new year celebration this year, which sucks a lot
now i’m ready to face 2012! even year is so my year! say goodbye to the bitchity bitchy bitch 2011 and btari, verra, and amira will probably stay at my house for the nu yeah eve tonight (if their parents allow them to, i hope they can make it) WE’RE GONNA SPEND OUR NEW YEAR’S EVE PLAYING MONOPOLY AND EATING LIKE A GODZILLA *calls domino’s pizza* on nom onom nom
that’s it! i hope everything’s gonna be okay next yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaahhhhhrrrrrr *chicken dancing together with the gif*
on wednesday i finally went to cinema to watch something after like……3 months of not-watching-anything and the last movie i watched was……… fastfive. i felt like a dried squid. but thank God at least it wasn’t breaking dawn *posing like bella beside a tree*
SO i watched arisan2 with bunga keziah prazna and her bro. tasya went home earlier which is uncool. and oh god that movie was so GAY. full of gay people, peeps, it’s a gay movie!! not that i discriminate gay ppl anyways you have to watch this movie if you’re indonesian, like, dude, seriously. it was awesometastic *forcing mike to give his 2 thumbs up* there’s this one gay guy who loves to twitpic every-fucking-thing….. maybe i should do that too since i have instagram now HEHAHEHA *writes in 2012 resolution list*
btw my college life starts on january the 6th. man i’m no longer a highschool student and have no idea what college life would be like. do singapore people bite? do i look chewy? *grab the fat in my tummy* all i know about singapore is that they have yummy one dollar ice cream :/ i’ll enroll to raffles design institute majoring graphic design WHICH is very sad because i’ve just found out an awesome major called illustration where i can develop my drawing style after i got the letter of acceptance from raffles….. i’m definitely going to Academy of Art in San Francisco for my master degree…. *sobs like a baby* at least my mum agrees that i can continue my studies in the US. yeah i have to deal with advertising graphic thingy for 3 years before i go to the US!! so long, Jakarta Depok
yesterday i had dinner with the coolest people i’ve ever met B-)
it’s funny that we’ve been friends for years since elementary school and go to different schools yet we still hang together like boobs. aulia and i couldn’t stop teasing novri with that weird song that keeps repeating the same lyrics like justin bieber’s song: alibi alibi alibi alibi *singing*
ANYWAYS
as you know, my dad is seriously ill, i hope he’s gonna be okay. he’ll be okay, hopefully. and next week i have to take IELTS test akdlkasdjakdj i’ve been studying so damn hard (not really actually, but exaggerating makes it awesome) for the TOEFL test yet they ask me to take an IELTS test instead!! hufity huft. life is not good.
i haven’t updated tumblr for so long, now this feels awesometastic, i missed u tumbly *kissing the screen*
my dad is sick let’s pray for him!
*praying*
anyway, today btari and i went to sushigroove in citywalk to have an AWESOME cheap all you can eat sushi like a boss. we ordered gazillion food and finish our last roll with a toast
amazeballs, peeps.
i can’t wait to pack all my stuffs, move in to singapore, and have a pet dog. i’m not in the mood to write about my life yet. but long story short: i miss my friends!
currently at TBI waiting for my toefl preparation class to begin. the atmosphere is just too different from E*F *oops* but i feel nervous somehow!! i haven’t spoken a proper English for years!!! *not entirely true tho but still* hhhhnnngggghhh can’t wait to finish these stuffs and pack my stuffs and get away from here
i’m thinking about buying a new bike or maybe just a scooter there in singapore. or maybe skateboard so i’ll look cool on my way to college B-) lyk a boss. idk what will happen there but i feel so stoked! life’s great when you don’t have school and college is awaiting for you :””””’)
okay! i still have 15 min to go, i’ll just wait here quietly like a nice kid :>
i’m an auntie now! *du du du dum du dummm*
so my cousin has just given a birth to my nephew, and it’s me and my another cousin’s duty to build all of the baby stuffs they’ve bought. i was silently looking at this suspicious box:
i mean, guys…. all of gazzilions name why must PET SHOP? do they think it’s a good idea to give a baby stuffs brand “petshop”? and it says that it’s petshop 2. things are sure confusing nowadays U_U
but finally we got to finish it on time. i know i’m a pro, but not with babies. they all look the same it confuses me a lot. and they’re too fragile. let’s say that i like to throw my cat anywhere i like (yes i like to toss mike to the sofa, at least, it’s a sofa) then he’ll be okay. maybe it hurts for cat but i guess it’s still okay *evil owner* but babies? they even cry when they look at my face. i’m not that scary you know, guys, believe me 0:)
so wanna see da baby? check this out told ya babies look all the same but, hip hip hooray now i have something to play with!!!
but vacuum cleaner sucks better.
that’s always been my motto since i got into highschool. nah, not really, maybe since the 2nd term of the freshman year. and i know it’s a weird motto! or a pun. no. it’s too-not-funny for a pun.
shit happens everywhere, and vacuum cleaner can’t suck shit. dammit, i feel like a crap these days… ”the worst thing about getting too attached to someone is when they leave you, you just feel so lost” quoted from… i forget what movie it was, but it’s on tumblr so whatevs you can tumble it by yourself.
anyway, enough with the gloomity gloom!! here goes the news: i’m gonna move in to singapore next year! no more traffic, no more polution, no more trashy amang amang who likes to romance everyone with their eyes just like what aulia said, i know what two words i’m gonna declare for this great news: fuck yeah. i’m gonna take a pre university there and then if my illness get better, i’ll go to australia for college. AWESOME isn’t it? and guess what? i don’t have to study until that day comes *hoping it’d come faster* of course i’m not going there alone, my mum got a new job from her boss so we move there. i won’t take the national test for high school student. i don’t have to take the school tests too. i’m gonna leha leha like beha amongst the uber ambitious people. U JELLY PEOPLE? *flagellum dancing* i’m gonna move, like, probably, maybe, between december january or february. life is gooooood *sips kopi kapal api* i wish mum got her new job in somewhere further like japan or european country. even australia is enough, but still, i’m feeling glad that i’m finally gonna move from this sucky yucky country
this post somewhat makes me feel awesome again B-)
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