NYAM cat

AWWWWWfeebean

aaaaaaaaaaaaallllll alone

not that i don’t like it….

nah the truth is i don’t like being alone BOOHOOOHOOO *sobbing so hard as hard as titit gajah* damn i just wish i had a company. so here i am waiting for my driver to pick mum up and come here to get me outta here

some of the reasons why i am here:

• my class got cancelled when i was already there
• people are too tired to deal with me until 11pm
• this place is amazeballs, thanks to teru, ifa, maria and the others for letting me know about this dayyymn cozy place
• well my mum went to korea for work but she didn’t even tell me earlier so i could tag along and enjoy daebak food and stuffs. she’s a meanie

well i’d choose starb*cks over coffeeb*an but this place is open for 24 hours! i can make myself feel like home here…. you’re welcome :)

anyways

guess what happened today? my first class of the new term got cancelled (i did told you) and what did they plan for us for the ‘make up’? they made us go on a boat tourist tour in clarke quay. i was like WHAT BOAT WAIT THE RIVER?

damn wait i haven’t fucking told you guys that my campus moved to clarke quay. it’s getting even more gaul than before i know!! i can go karaoke-ing and sing on the top of my lungs after class, i would drink and get drunk if i could……….. cough cough cough? now i can choose between mcd and burger king for lunch or brunch, and the best thing is that now i can spend my time galau-ing over “mcd or bk” at the riverbank!! WELCOME TO DA RIVER *hippo face*

but yeah the boat tour was annoying. i almost puked because i haven’t eaten anything nor slept since yesterday. not a single bite and not a single second… SPEAKING OF EATINGGGG guess who’s gonna make a great great awesometastic campaign about “moving on”, “tobat”, and “diet”?

i call it #nilamMTD

move on, tobat, diet. three things that i’m gonna achieve and try to do starting from 5th of May 2013. i’ll start to move on, i’ll start to do my prayer again, i’ll start to go on a diet (i’ve started it now tho) if you ask me why 5th of May it’s because it’s gonna be the day i’m gonna come back from bandung. i don’t wanna spend my days there without yummy food of course! and nope haven’t bought the ticket but whatevs no one can stop me.

ugh i’m feeling sick i guess that’s because i haven’t gulped anything but coffee and latte for 24 hours…… i need some sleep too. so bye guys i’m gonna continue enjoying myself here in the cafe thinking about stuffs i shouldn’t be thinking too much about

i miss my cool highschool… really. i just miss being loved

anonynaila:

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mello-dramatic:

Everyone who reblogs this will get the title of a book to read based on their bio/posts.

Everyone. I mean it.

THIS IS THE BEST POST

I HAVE EVER SEEN

EVER

they really do mean everyone

i’ll give this a try!

(via inappropriatesidekick)

johnny i thought you were hacked on twitter, turned out youre only turning mushy

i guess i am…..

the first thing i’m gonna ask God in heaven is pokemon

AS IFFFFF I’M GOING TO HEAVEN………… okay i’m still hoping i’ll get into there somehow yes fuck off guys i do believe in heaven and hell just like chrisye and ahmad dani

anyways i’m downloading pokemon’s first season now. how i miss childhood, i was a japanese cutie back then with all the frilly dreses and princess cut and smooth white skin in the middle of japanese’s park……. shit yourself and believe me

just how in the world did that cutie turned into something like this

sorry mum it really is me and btari

i just couldn’t help my self okay the toilet was calling my name i knew it.

btw my download is almost there so catch ya later, enjoy that pic instead

mango-pan replied to your post: passing out feels like nyan cat

Nilam does this mean you’re a nyan cat now TAKE ME WITH YOU TO A MAGICAL JOURNEY

i-i’ve never thought about me, maybe i’m a nyan cat now :3 LET’S GO

passing out feels like nyan cat

guess what? today is my very very very vvvvvvvvvvvvvvirgin very first time i passed out. and it feels like nyan cat. don’t ask me “what the fuck do you mean by nyan cat, nilam??” before you read this entire post. so, this is how it went:

i woke up in the morning feeling like taylor swift, or, in general adjective (or color), red. yes, red. it’s been four-frikkin-days since the i got this itchy bitchy feely all over my body, and it’s all red like boiled crab…. or kepiting rebus they said. i think i am allergic to something but the problem is iiii dunno no whaaaaeeettt i’m allergic to. it might be egg or noodle because that was what i ate before i got some itches. but damn, if i was allergic to one of them, or worse, both of em, i… i… I…. i’m gonna eat them regardless the fact that i’m allergic to those cutie and sexy babes.

back to the case

so today before class started, my mum took me to see the doctor. it was doctor Wong. CHING CHANG CHONG SOM BOUWEEEWAAAHHH *coughcouhgcough* no offence *cough* the thing is, he told me that i’m fat. well YOU DON’T SAY? i know that already sob sob sob why do you have to remind me now i don’t feel pretty anymore :’(

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just kidding i know i’m forever pretty (UvU*)

back to the case

he told me to take a blood test and an x-ray. just what’s the relation between skin and bones. okay okay doctors or medical students or aulia or khalil i know you know what’s their relation just pssshhhhh and let me look cool on this post. then i went to the lab and they took my blood sample AAAAAAND the story began here

they pull a box full of needles and tubes. i was like “okay stay cool it’s just a small needle and- HOLYSHIT THAT’S ONE FUCKING BIG TUBE stay cool it’s just one tube they’re not gonna fill it up until it- HOLYMOLLY CAN YOU STOP SUCKING MY BLOOD?” then it ends there.

suddenly my head feels heavy

heavier

heaviiierrrr

even heavier

then i feel like something snapped in my head and i forgot what happened.

but one thing i remember, passing out feels like nyan cat. all you see is nothing but black with weird sound playing in the background oh gosh it felt like a movie but the song was… was…. really… extremely close to nyan cat’s theme song (???) i don’t know don’t ask me. then when i regained consciousness, there were my mum and the nurse and the doctor. at first everything was blurry, like movies *winks* oh whoa i love things like movies it’s just everything looks so cool in movies especially when you watch it in the cinema :)

back to the case

i couldn’t remember anything for seconds and i was like “what where who how?” then i remembered that my head got heavy. i was covered in sweat when i regained my consciousness. my hands were tense. it feels like nyan cat *again* somehow rainbowish

that’s it.

then i boast it off to everyone at school and still on going. btw, long time no tumblin guys *nyancat theme song playing on the background*

blah

sometimes i feel uncomfortable with my awesomeness *whip my hair back and forth*

anyway, tomorrow i’m gonna have a BBQ parrrrteeeeeeyyyyy wooohoooooooooo *cough* not really, it’s just an event held by some Indonesian group in our college. but man, any event that has food in it count as a party to me, which makes party hard turns into eat hard for me. oh boy i can smell your scent baby barbeque *sniffs*

my life has been a roller coaster lately. wait, i know i said my life is awesome on the last post but i think i was high when i post that…… never mind i’m high all the time because i consume anime. oh waw that’s one big confession

yeah life has been a roller coaster ride, well i don’t even get it why they call is as a roller coaster ride but never mind i’m still using that so i look cool on my blog and hoping someone would see it and let me be a celebrity or something, you know, money $_$ OR maybe i should start posting videos on redtube i mean, youtube. but i’ve embarrassed myself enough on this blog, i guess i can’t go any further…… we’ll see tho *innocent pure angelic like smile*

and guess what i am doing right now… unconsciously made a ring out of bluetack and put it on my finger while having a conversation on Skype. just what’s happening to my life am i that desperate that i made a ring with this freaking bluetack. that’s it. i’m leaving before i do things that’s even more weird than that.

have fun big bang watcher, peace out saranghae gangnam style

bbbrrrrmmmmmm

the title is the sound of a car fyi, to symbolize the turning point of my life

my life is getting better each day, it feels as if i’ve lost some kilograms….. even though i haven’t *COUGH COUGH SO HARD COUGH* never mind, so, i tried so hard to forget some stuffs that happened in the past. and now i’m trying to fix things that i messed up with. if my mind was a toilet, there’s so much tissue and poop in it. i have a complicated way of thinking despite how i act and how i deal with shits in real life.

i don’t know how to convey things in my head, i still can’t figure it out, there’s tons and gazillion things i want to tell the world but i just can’t. maybe that’s why God give me this magic hands. yup i call em magic hands because i can do things well with them. i can draw, i can play music instruments, i can punch people, i can cook, i can sew, i can do a handjo- oh wait i’m too pure for that UvU JJJUUUUUUSSSST kiddin…

BUT GUIZE, i finally found a courage to show things i usually hide to people. my best bros helped me to convey my feelings too, i think things are gonna be okaeeee from now and my current real life situation is way much much muccch better

thanks people for being in my life 

and….. why does this post sound so sensitive? 

no

no, no, i’m not dead…. yet.

i’ve been.. um… how do i put this…. bored? not really, i have things to do so i’m not bored but i’m not busy either, in fact i have a lot of free time. it’s only that i spent those spare time rolling on my bed murmuring about stuffs and stuffs in alien language.

anyways, i’m staying at semarang this week!! i’m staying at aulia’s place. it’s the end of term which is my holiday. but everyone else is busy as hell, even now i’m waiting for aulia to get done with her classes and tasks. and thanks to my best friend (ronald mcdonald) that i can use free wifi here at mcd. yeah yeah yeah everyone knows i love this place so fucking hard it hurts BOOHOOOHOO gotta cheat on him to starbucks next tho.

many things have happened while i’m not on tumblr…. NOT REALLY, guys, seriously, i’ve been scrolling tumblr without posting any word. told ya i’m not busy. it’s pathetic i know hnggghhh but yeah it’s true that a lot of things happened to me. i don’t even know how to share it in a way that you could enjoy… oh lol i talk like as if people enjoy my previous writing BUT BABY I KNOW IT’S TRUE because people who knows me are all kepo enough to read this unimportant thing.

you know, i hate this place… i mean not semarang, but singapore. every time i complain everyone says i have to be grateful. i know that, i know that very well but i was just hoping someone would understand how it feels like and say “yeah man that place sucks go somewhere better” whoever say that to me please let me be your wife. have i told you how my class is? no boys. lemme repeat it again. NO BOIZ SHEESH HOW DO I MARRY PEOPLE? *cry*if you ask me yes yes i’m that desperate! i mean living in a world where there’s no boys is like… like….. eating burger without the meat and cheese. you know those are the best part of a burger! i don’t mean i need a boy as a jable it’s because they’re more fun to fool around with… well okay i’m a jable then… but hey all the girls here are all girly girly gurlz i can’t even fart in class and share the wonderful scent of my fart with other people. i miss highschool so much, i knew i’d miss it but i’ve never thought i would miss it this much. everyone is talking in ching chong language i might die in one xie xie whatever it means.

so xie xie guys

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RIP my sanity

ps. i think i’m gonna run away to australia for my bachelor degree after i finish my diploma degree here. and clarissa if you read this you have to go to australia too cause i don’t wanna pay the rent all alone >:l

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it seems like YOLO is the only reason to every questions in my life lol yoloyoloyolo

so SUP GUYZ? now i have 3 classes, in three days, for college. my life is sexy and you know it. but the class is so quiet it’s like someone’s dead every second……….

what should i write here i have no idea…………

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okay tumblelog is over now nap time *body slam the bed*