01. 12:26 AM
02. Name – Nilam
03. Astrology sign – Cancer
04. Gender - pretty gurl
05. Eye color – very dark brown
06. Favorite color(s) – bright colors!!
07. Glasses – yup
08. Location – different places on earth
09. Single or taken – *COUGH* not
10. Brother and sister’s names – kiki the ungrateful bro
Have you ever:
11. Cut your own hair – i do that everytime
12. Done something that you regret – i don’t regret a single thing in my life
13. Skipped school – hella lot
14. Bungee-jumped – would like to try someday!
15. Punched someone – why don’t you ask my fist
16. Cheated on a test – on every goddamn test
17. Been cheated on – not that i’ve had someone who would cheat on me
18. Broke into someone’s house – i used to go to this friend’s house even when she wasn’t home yet
19. Been out of the country – a lot i guess that i can’t decide which one’s home
20. Been to a funeral – to my friend’s mother funeral. it was the first and was unpleasant so i never went to any funeral after that
21. Used a lighter – played with them all the time
22. Been on a stage – hells yea!!
23. Season – summer!
24. Food – sushi and burger
25. Ice cream flavor – green tea, and banana for yoghurt
26. Candy – any lemon flavored
27. Person – i’ve always thought if someone ask who my favorite person is i would answer that it’s one of my senior, she inspires me even until now. WELL i guess everyone knows her name i’m too embarrassed to type it
28. Book – any book that doesn’t use past tense. i know it’s weird but past tense passage turns me off
29. Song – can’t name them all, mostly alternative rock kind of music
30. River – clean and shallow ones
31. Place – rooftops
32. Sport to watch on TV – baseball match! though i’d like to watch it on field too
33. Disney movie(s) – after all the time lion king is still the best
34. Disney Princess – ariel and belle cause they’re sooo pretty
35. Name for a daughter – Karin
36. Name for a son – Dio
Do you prefer:
36. Chocolate or vanilla – vanilla
37. Coffee or Cappuccino – cappuccino
38. One night stands or long relationships – long relationships
39. Cats or dogs – dogs cause i’m a dog person
and i love doggy style
40. Scary movies or comedies – comedies or i’ll die
41. Short or long hair on the preferred sex – any cuties go well with any hair :$
42. Croutons or bacon bits – croutons bcs i love carbohydrate
First things that come to mind:
43. Chainsaws – don’t kill me
44. School – ugly
45. Cows – milk
46. Canada – nice
47. Mouse – tom and jerry
48. Hand – HOLD THEM
The past 3 days, have you:
49. Talked on the phone – yeah, though i missed most of phone calls lately
50. Watched a movie – yep some motherfucking horse movie bcs my friends were watching it when i hit their place
51. Cried – nope my life is pretty relaxing lately
52. Drank a glass of water – of course are you expecting me to fill this shit but not drinking water
53. Read a book or magazine – was about to……… okay i will do it i just bought a new book
54. Watched TV – i watched ellen’s show on youtube… tv enough
55. Looked in the mirror – yes of course
56. Taken a shower – yes i’m clean
57. Taken a picture – yes, there was an event yesterday so picture everywhere
58. Listened to music – right now
59. Told someone you love/like them – nope, i suck at saying l-l-l-l-lo-lov-love
60. What time is it – 12:50 it is
my name is Nilam. big mac is my best friend. originally indonesian but currently staying in singapore
johor actually for studies. i'm a big package with AWESOMETASTIC stuffs in it
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I swear this is my last blog.
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today is the day…
I FINALLY GOT THE COURAGE TO OPEN TUMBLR IN CLASS. fugyea i’m now an adult *checking bucket list* it’s always scaring because i’m afraid some dicks will eventually show up on the top of my dashboard. it’s like opening dick shaped jack in a box.
anyway i’m currently leha leha-ing in class doing nothing while the others are all doing their assignments and listening to the lectures…. actually nobody’s listening to my lecturer right now. there there.
guess what. i’m going to one *cough* direction *cough* store *cough* after class with some friends. it’s the first 1D store in asia you bitchas i’m outta here i gotta give my boys some kiss… oh stahp it one direction :$ i probably gonna *cough* get *cough* their *cough* cap *cough* i’m gonna watch their movie next goddamn week. nial is my fav boy because his name is similar to mine. pretty legit reason to give a boy a special attention.
anyways, aside from the fingerling time…. WHATDAFUDGE auto correct?? i wanted to say fangirling time but it changed to fingerling?? fingering? seriously? i’m not that jablay oh stahp it u guize *blush blush blush*
again, aside from the FANGIRLING time, i think i’m gonna make a channel on youtube (not that i haven’t) what should i do should i make it or should i not make it but but but i’m not that bu- I DON’T CARE i’m gonna make it anyway *troll face*
and now it’s an in-class assignment time… a student gotta do what a student gotta do *le sigh* bye peepz
now im finally at johor kingdom, leha leha-ing on my bed, drinking fanta which is not my favorite drink, eating canned pineapple, while waiting for my double portioned indomie (sorry mum, sorry tummy, sorry new pair of shorts, but fatty food are sure yummy especially when they’re doubled) life is just too daaaamn good atm. even mikki chills with me aw yisss
and im posting this on my phone….. BUT, i found this lil dude here in my room……
damn rude phone it cant put pictures on posts!!!!!
anyway what i found was a wireless logitech keyboard for ipad which is definitely my brother’s. now keyboard aBUSING TIME *keyboard smashing* this thing is so bendi (yea i speak japneeze now you got problem?) sigh why cant i be normal for once goddammit
back to topic, i finally watched the sequel of kick ass! now if you follow my blog dilligently…. or yknow… stalk :) :) :) the only good movie reviews i’ve ever written were machette (ohyes) and kick ass. now that this movie has been released IMMA TOTALLY WRITE A GOOD ONE ON THIS BABE. here it goes!!!
(pssh i watched it last week but khalil was staying at my apartment so i cant be funny while he’s around cause i’m a sweetheart at heart :> stahp it u)
i watched it with sheena and maria on the very last minute after buying some food and brought it to the theaters illegally. the movie started. first of all, aaron johnson looked like shit. he used to look like a sex god on movies other than kick ass. but i dont care because hey hit girl was cool (despite the fact that she didnt grow boobs) this time, kick ass 2, was even more awesome because of the new nicknames…. and free tits :l i shouldn’t have bought maria the ticket considering she’s still a minor *a party bitchin minor to be exact* anyway sheena was gaping and shocked when she saw free tits and i was the only one was like
"hells yea this is the best movie ever"
i would totally love to see them dicks. just kidding i’m not that wild i’m a sweetheart at heart 0:) speaking of dicks, i forgot to mention that i’ve been shoving kaleidoskop and call it an extra dick to this laos guy i met few weeks ago when we had a sleepover at maria’s house. that was totally off topic but who cares it’s still them dicks.
anyway the nicknames was epic like who would call a lingerie head villain motherfucker with a serious tone. twelve out of ten this movie owns.
but HEyYy my indomie is here so it’s time to eat sorry guys gotta update more later so bubye kicked asses!!
i know it’s been forever, this might not be a goofy or funny post you usually see on my blog… maybe a little blue but it won’t be that sad i promise! i will explain why i did this and why do i sound like i have so many readers when there’s actually just a few friends and blog walkers reading this. i won’t be able to blog as much as i did before because of some stuffs i’m gonna explain here. and i might as well stop blogging for a while, again, because of some stuffs i’m gonna explain here so… listen
i started blogging on tumblr because i thought it was fun, my friend aulia made her blog here before me. and then i joined tumblr because it looks better than the other blog i’ve had before! then novri, khalil, rima, like everyone made their tumblr too. and somehow, i don’t know why, i feel like i could be my own self here. not forcing myself to post stuffs or forcing myself to make everything look wonderful like my old blogs. because it was wonderful, everything in my life, the happy ones even the sad ones… i cherished it so much.
I always have this delusion every time i write on my blog i feel like i talk to millions of people, i always feel that they’re real and it really feels like i’m talking to somebody out there like how i write this now. even when i know that nobody reads my post i always feel like i’m talking to loads and loads of people and it’s refreshing. i share my daily life here, talking about my school, my friends, and other stuffs too.
but lately, i don’t feel like sharing my days anymore. i do have a lot of fun. i do enjoy my days. but something is lacking… i miss something that i don’t even know what it is. there’s this something that always makes me proud of everything but it’s gone… i don’t know where it is, i don’t even know what it is. i feel like i’m missing a big part of my life. it happened after i moved to singapore. i left so many friends….. i was sad but there’s nothing i could do, moving to singapore was my only choice and my only way to fix my life. then months have passed. some people started to forget me. a year has passed. other people did too. i feel so lonely, even when i’m surrounded by all the nice new friends here. they care so much about me. but i don’t get the feel i used to feel.
i tried to blog one of my most happiest day here, but i couldn’t… it made me sad. all i could do now is share my feelings which is not entertaining at all. one day, i’m gonna go out there again, posting stuffs that real millions of people would really enjoy. whatever it is, i will make millions of people happy.
not that i don’t like it….
nah the truth is i don’t like being alone BOOHOOOHOOO *sobbing so hard as hard as titit gajah* damn i just wish i had a company. so here i am waiting for my driver to pick mum up and come here to get me outta here
some of the reasons why i am here:
- my class got cancelled when i was already there
- people are too tired to deal with me until 11pm
- this place is amazeballs, thanks to teru, ifa, maria and the others for letting me know about this dayyymn cozy place
- well my mum went to korea for work but she didn’t even tell me earlier so i could tag along and enjoy daebak food and stuffs. she’s a meanie
well i’d choose starb*cks over coffeeb*an but this place is open for 24 hours! i can make myself feel like home here…. you’re welcome :)
guess what happened today? my first class of the new term got cancelled (i did told you) and what did they plan for us for the ‘make up’? they made us go on a boat tourist tour in clarke quay. i was like WHAT BOAT WAIT THE RIVER?
damn wait i haven’t fucking told you guys that my campus moved to clarke quay. it’s getting even more gaul than before i know!! i can go karaoke-ing and sing on the top of my lungs after class, i would drink and get drunk if i could……….. cough cough cough? now i can choose between mcd and burger king for lunch or brunch, and the best thing is that now i can spend my time galau-ing over “mcd or bk” at the riverbank!! WELCOME TO DA RIVER *hippo face*
but yeah the boat tour was annoying. i almost puked because i haven’t eaten anything nor slept since yesterday. not a single bite and not a single second… SPEAKING OF EATINGGGG guess who’s gonna make a great great awesometastic campaign about “moving on”, “tobat”, and “diet”?
i call it #nilamMTD
move on, tobat, diet. three things that i’m gonna achieve and try to do starting from 5th of May 2013. i’ll start to move on, i’ll start to do my prayer again, i’ll start to go on a diet (i’ve started it now tho) if you ask me why 5th of May it’s because it’s gonna be the day i’m gonna come back from bandung. i don’t wanna spend my days there without yummy food of course! and nope haven’t bought the ticket but whatevs no one can stop me.
ugh i’m feeling sick i guess that’s because i haven’t gulped anything but coffee and latte for 24 hours…… i need some sleep too. so bye guys i’m gonna continue enjoying myself here in the cafe thinking about stuffs i shouldn’t be thinking too much about
i miss my cool highschool… really. i just miss being loved
AS IFFFFF I’M GOING TO HEAVEN………… okay i’m still hoping i’ll get into there somehow yes fuck off guys i do believe in heaven and hell just like chrisye and ahmad dani
anyways i’m downloading pokemon’s first season now. how i miss childhood, i was a japanese cutie back then with all the frilly dreses and princess cut and smooth white skin in the middle of japanese’s park……. shit yourself and believe me
just how in the world did that cutie turned into something like this
sorry mum it really is me and btari
i just couldn’t help my self okay the toilet was calling my name i knew it.
btw my download is almost there so catch ya later, enjoy that pic instead
guess what? today is my very very very vvvvvvvvvvvvv
virgin very first time i passed out. and it feels like nyan cat. don’t ask me “what the fuck do you mean by nyan cat, nilam??” before you read this entire post. so, this is how it went:
i woke up in the morning feeling like taylor swift, or, in general adjective (or color), red. yes, red. it’s been four-frikkin-days since the i got this itchy bitchy feely all over my body, and it’s all red like boiled crab…. or kepiting rebus they said. i think i am allergic to something but the problem is iiii dunno no whaaaaeeettt i’m allergic to. it might be egg or noodle because that was what i ate before i got some itches. but damn, if i was allergic to one of them, or worse, both of em, i… i… I…. i’m gonna eat them regardless the fact that i’m allergic to those cutie and sexy babes.
back to the case
so today before class started, my mum took me to see the doctor. it was doctor Wong. CHING CHANG CHONG SOM BOUWEEEWAAAHHH *coughcouhgcough* no offence *cough* the thing is, he told me that i’m fat. well YOU DON’T SAY? i know that already sob sob sob why do you have to remind me now i don’t feel pretty anymore :’(
just kidding i know i’m forever pretty (UvU*)
back to the case
he told me to take a blood test and an x-ray. just what’s the relation between skin and bones. okay okay doctors or medical students or aulia or khalil i know you know what’s their relation just pssshhhhh and let me look cool on this post. then i went to the lab and they took my blood sample AAAAAAND the story began here
they pull a box full of needles and tubes. i was like “okay stay cool it’s just a small needle and- HOLYSHIT THAT’S ONE FUCKING BIG TUBE stay cool it’s just one tube they’re not gonna fill it up until it- HOLYMOLLY CAN YOU STOP SUCKING MY BLOOD?" then it ends there.
suddenly my head feels heavy
then i feel like something snapped in my head and i forgot what happened.
but one thing i remember, passing out feels like nyan cat. all you see is nothing but black with weird sound playing in the background oh gosh it felt like a movie but the song was… was…. really… extremely close to nyan cat’s theme song (???) i don’t know don’t ask me. then when i regained consciousness, there were my mum and the nurse and the doctor. at first everything was blurry, like movies *winks* oh whoa i love things like movies it’s just everything looks so cool in movies especially when you watch it in the cinema :)
back to the case
i couldn’t remember anything for seconds and i was like “what where who how?” then i remembered that my head got heavy. i was covered in sweat when i regained my consciousness. my hands were tense. it feels like nyan cat *again* somehow rainbowish
then i boast it off to everyone at school and still on going. btw, long time no tumblin guys *nyancat theme song playing on the background*